13th April 2017
A few weeks ago I started to cough so Mum took me to doggy doctor Martin, he gave me antibiotics for 10 days, but my cough didn't go away; & when Mum took me back he said I should have an X-ray so the next week I went back; was in for the day as I went for a sleep while it was done. Mum came back in the afternoon; he told Mum that I had a mass in my lung. Mum was so upset, Martin the doggy doctor said he would refer me to the small animal hospital. When I went there Mum left me again, this time to have a CT scan, so again I went for a little sleep until Mum came back for me. Doggy man just confirmed and said that I could have surgery to have it removed so Mum had to make the decision. We went back on the 12th April 2017, when Mum and I saw the Surgeon, he kept me as Mum wanted to make me better. Mum was so upset as I wasn't having surgery until the next morning which she wasnt happy about but they said I would be fine. I was hungry but they fed and walked me but I was missing Mum as I normally slept on their bed. Next morning I went for a little sleep, while I was snoozing Cameron vet surgeon phoned my Mum to say it wasn't good and that she had three options, one was to remove the mass but he didn't know what quality of life I would have or not to remove it but neither would make me any better and the third option was to let me go to Rainbow bridge while I was asleep. Mum decided that this was the best option for me as I was already sleeping and I hadn't suffered.....she didn't want me to suffer...so I just went for a little sleep on the morning of 13th April 2017 and didn't wake up. I know Mum you will be so upset as I was your precious special girl you told me that all the time and that you will be shedding tears and missing me lots....I miss you too Mum. & I know that you are thinking that I went before my time, but I know you couldnt watch me suffer know you were expecting me home but I didnt suffer Mum.
My eyes are heavy now, my time has come to leave, but one thing I must tell you as you stay behind to grieve... Mum you always did your best for me, your love it knew no end, I really was a very Lucky Dog to have you as my Friend. I see how much you miss me now, your days seem bleak & bare, I know you well, your heart is big, you still have love to share.....So Mum please don't sit and cry for me, we'll meet around the bend til then another Lucky Dog is waiting for a Friend.........miss you lots & lots Suzi as I loved you to the moon & back. I'm so so sorry Suzi
Mum says I'm now over Rainbow Bridge, running around with all the other pets that have gone there. I'm now Mum's guardian angel and I'm watching over her now when she walks Gino who has helped to ease her pain that she has losing me. Mum please dont feel bad that you now have Gino, I know you needed another ... it was meant to be that Gino came to you so soon. He will love you just as much as I did & help heal your pain but I know you will never forget me.
Now that Ive been across Rainbow Bridge for a few weeks they said I should write a letter home. Sorry 'Mum' but I've been so busy 'across the bridge' that I havent thought of home much. They said it's okay and that you will understand, I hope you do, (I think you will.
Remember that day when I wasnt well & you took me to the Vet hospital as you wanted to make me better, I dont remember much as I had a lovely snooze but I do remember hearing 'I love you'& I want to make you better. So you had to leave me for my operation, doggy doctor said he would phone you.... I walked away & saw you crying. I went for a little sleep & didnt wake up, but Mum I didnt suffer as I turned round and walked through the fog that was in front of me. I saw the biggest bridge Ive ever seen! And so many friends on the other side of it! They were all playing with toys and balls! You were right to let me go there as I certainly never suffered. My feet kept moving forward but my heart kept pulling me back. I was overcome by this feeling of curiosity for the happy place over the bridge. My feet started moving on their own, like a gentle breeze was moving them forward for me! I cant explain it, but I had no doubt that it was the right thing to do! So I walked across that big, huge bridge by myself! I looked for you, because you were always by my side, walking with me, but this was different. I didnt have a collar around my neck or a lead connecting me to you...I was free! Even though you werent there with me. I never felt alone, I actually felt like I had a huge cape of love wrapped around my body and the more I walked, the easier it was to breathe"! So I kept walking and I would feel more warmth in the big hug so I kept on walking I eventually made it over the big bridge I did it by myself Mum. When I got here, all of my new friends greeted me and helped me walk off the bridge it was so cool. They gave me a pair of wings and said that I was now a Guardian Angel. What I have learned over these past few weeks has been amazing and nothing like I have seen before. We are all the same up here we all have wings and we all have Forever People to watch over & thats you Mum. You're my Forever Person & I'm you're Forever Dog. We had such a great life together and I do miss you a LOT, but please know that I am so happy in my new home across the Bridge ! I sent you another Earth Angel so you wont be alone. Give Gino your whole heart, like you gave it to me. I'll check in every so often to make sure Gino treasures your love- I always did ! When you miss me, think of a Rainbow and know I'm on the other side of it, waiting to walk with you again. I'll always be in your heart. I love you Mum, Time for me to go play...Miss you x
I have left you now but please dont be sad you gave me all the love you had. You did so much for me in my time here I'll always hold those precious times near. I know someday you will find love again & into your life will come a new friend. Memories are wonderful so keep them close & remember all the good times that we had the most. Up in the heaven for animals is where I'll be & some day in the future each other we will see. I am at peace now so please dont be sad you gave me all the love you had.